Like I said in the title my life is basically fucked.
Some of the more common members will notice I have been absent from the forums for a month. This is because in this month I have had the best and worst experience of my life.
Basically to start from the beginning I had the realisation that the balloon Fetish would hinder my relationship chances so I decided to give them up for good. Obviously as I’m here you can guess how that’s going.
My best friend who I have fancied for a while and knows about my thing for balloons decided to support Me with my rehab and during this time I spent 2 weeks in Greece on a holiday with him and my family. It was during these 2 weeks he confessed he had feelings for me but in his words “nothing can happen” for fear of compromising our friendship. Then during the last day things got heated and we showed each other our dicks and allowed each other to touch them with clothes on at first. Later that day we decided to do it again with a full exposure and started my to jerk each other off. This lasting for a minute at best before immediately realising that what we did was a mistake and going into seperate rooms to finish ourselves off.
This was the last day of the holiday and he was due to spend the first night back in England at my house with my parents. It was then that he started talking about what happened and inevitably ended up giving us both errections that we decided rather foolishly to “help each other out” with. We jerked each other off, this time actually finishing each other off and I was more in love than ever.
Sadly unlike fairy tales this one didn’t have a happy ending. We regretted it instantly or rather he did and since them neither one cannot stop thinking about what happened as it was our first sexual activity ever. Never done anything sexual besides masturbate before.
Why does this link to balloons you may ask? Because he’s the reason I gave them up, for hope of a relationship with him. I can simply go back to balloons but he’s giving the “things may happen in the future” bit. If I go back there is no chance yet if I don’t there is a slim but unlikely chance. I’m conflicted because I fear no man or woman will want to date a 20 year old with a balloon fetish.
I’m going to openly ask. Is there any member of this forum male or female in there 20s who lives in the UK either willing to give me my first romantic Looner experience or can anybody recommend a dating website for people like us.
Going to be honest at this point my confidence is so low that I will find anybody who will embrace me for me just like my friend that I’m actually depressed.
Some of the more common members will notice I have been absent from the forums for a month. This is because in this month I have had the best and worst experience of my life.
Basically to start from the beginning I had the realisation that the balloon Fetish would hinder my relationship chances so I decided to give them up for good. Obviously as I’m here you can guess how that’s going.
My best friend who I have fancied for a while and knows about my thing for balloons decided to support Me with my rehab and during this time I spent 2 weeks in Greece on a holiday with him and my family. It was during these 2 weeks he confessed he had feelings for me but in his words “nothing can happen” for fear of compromising our friendship. Then during the last day things got heated and we showed each other our dicks and allowed each other to touch them with clothes on at first. Later that day we decided to do it again with a full exposure and started my to jerk each other off. This lasting for a minute at best before immediately realising that what we did was a mistake and going into seperate rooms to finish ourselves off.
This was the last day of the holiday and he was due to spend the first night back in England at my house with my parents. It was then that he started talking about what happened and inevitably ended up giving us both errections that we decided rather foolishly to “help each other out” with. We jerked each other off, this time actually finishing each other off and I was more in love than ever.
Sadly unlike fairy tales this one didn’t have a happy ending. We regretted it instantly or rather he did and since them neither one cannot stop thinking about what happened as it was our first sexual activity ever. Never done anything sexual besides masturbate before.
Why does this link to balloons you may ask? Because he’s the reason I gave them up, for hope of a relationship with him. I can simply go back to balloons but he’s giving the “things may happen in the future” bit. If I go back there is no chance yet if I don’t there is a slim but unlikely chance. I’m conflicted because I fear no man or woman will want to date a 20 year old with a balloon fetish.
I’m going to openly ask. Is there any member of this forum male or female in there 20s who lives in the UK either willing to give me my first romantic Looner experience or can anybody recommend a dating website for people like us.
Going to be honest at this point my confidence is so low that I will find anybody who will embrace me for me just like my friend that I’m actually depressed.
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