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Old 09-11-2020, 09:25 AM
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Wasnīt sure where to post it, since it involves generall inflatables and balloons, so I posted it here.

Iīm thinking Iīm losing the inflatables fetish. I havenīt popped a balloon for months now, and I currently just canīt get myself to do so. All I did in all these months was inflate my gymnastic ball (literarely takes minutes to inflate with the handpump) and then do a bit of fetish stuff with it, but from the balloons, beach balls and all these nice items I kinda got away.

I am wondering. I delivered this fetish as a child (maybe at the age 9-10 donīt exactly recall) but then I also "lost" it for more than a decade, but it got re activated when I saw a random video about people popping ballons by sitting on them, and the balloons did put on quite a fight.

Anyhow.

Long ago I started working on a project which consumes a lot of time. I didnīt do fetish there (or very minimal) because Iīd rather continoue with my project for every minute I have.

Time moved on, and I got sloppy with the work on the project (Letīs just say due to reasons) but other things, unfortunately negative, came into my life.

Said project is quite a "fight" to get it going, with people who behave ... bad. Like we write back and forward (money involved) and for some reason they just stop writing to me. There was no argument or anything... so this frustrates me.

In August I got to know a random woman. Everything was just perfect, and I think I did fall in love for the first time ever. At least, Iīve never before experienced such a "screwed up" week (emotion wise). Problem is, the woman is actually married (unlucky married) and she wants a divorce, and over all there was talk of us 2 to get together...

For me this would be a to big step. I live with my parents still, and am over all allright with that situation (Iīm not lazy and pay some kind of rent here...). I had to move out and for the first time move together with another person into an apartment.

I just wasnīt yet ready for this step, so I talked to her that she must "fix" the relationship to her husband.

Sheīs one of the rare (Forum knowledge) women, whoīs very horny. Like she wantīs to have sex on a daily basis, but her husband wonīt do that with her for more than 5 years, so sheīs very frustrated about it.

Also at some points he just behaves mean. She has birthday, and makes herself a cake. He sees that, and instead of being nice, he complains about her making herself a cake.

Heīs not that bad. Heīs the father of 2 children he has with her, and he also has helped her, when she felt bad and frustrated (to long story) but the last many years their relationship evolved like that.

However.

It was made out that sheīs going to visit me for a week (it would be her first ever vacation) and weīre going to hike a lot. I live in a nice "tourist" place and she was looking forward to that.

Also - and her husband initially allowed that - weīd have sex. I told her Iīm a virgin still at the age of 34, and how much it bothers me, and she told me, that she likes to take that away from men, and sheīs done that quite often before she got married and all.

I was totally happy and energetic about all that and did a lot of research about avoiding her getting pregnant and all (Yeah I really needed to learn a lot about that) and everyting was prepared for her to visit me.

My parents still work, so weīd have 3 / 5 days in the morning where we have the house for us alone, and we even talked about what naughty things weīd do, and where are everyones "borders."

The week I could barely sleep because of looking forward to that, being nervous an all, and also during the day I was nervous (but in a positive way) all the time with heartbeat fast, part wise wet hands from sweat-nervous.

Then she, symbolically said, put a knife in my back.

One day she wrote me that her husband now has changed his oppinion and he wonīt allow her to visit me, and he wonīt allow any type of sex (not even her taking away my virginity).

Due to her not having a job, and literarely being so poor she canīt even afford "eye drops" for "5 buks" I sent her money, so she can buy these. I also gave her gold in WoW so she can buy playtime (worked 7 Months for that gold).

After that, after she said that she wonīt visit me, Iīd still continoue to support her money wise and all (Has to do something with the "dragon in me" furry-scalie stuff and the way I want to be... always nice)

She was like :O what? Why are you still supporting us after that?

Oh well sorry I kinda got carried away a bit.

Recently (To put it in a nutshell) there happened a lot of crap in my life, and I think I kinda stumbled into some kind of depression. I continoued finding others, tried that in WoW, but didnīt work and it frustrated me so much, that I un installed WoW ...

I am currently (welp over a decade) severe mental ill, even making these posts is demanding. I donīt have facebook or anything... I have steam, youtube and email and some forums but I also donīt have a mobile phone, so... yeah.

Iīve had the best ever fetish session 2020 "New years eve." My parents werenīt at home, they were invited by an aunt from me...

When it was about midnight, and outside all the fireworks was going off with a lot of noise and bangs, I had my own way of new years eve celebration.

I took a lot of balloons (maybe 50-60?) from different types and brands and sit popped a lot of them. I could just enjoy it a lot, because noone would care for the bang noises (they wouldnīt even be noticed) and noone would catch me, as I was completely alone at home.

Now under the year I often wake up in the morning (a bit horny) and want to do balloon stuff, but the more awake I get, the more I lose the "motivation" t o do so. Iīm scared someone (maybe the mailman?) could hear the bang and wonder what that was... Yeah, Iīve had these risks all the years before, and popped a lot of balloons, but recently I just got phobic about getting caught.

There also were many close calls. One time I was aggain alone at home (the only time I do this fetish). It was said, my brother wonīt come home for hours. I had my fetish, opened the bathroom door (I do it in there) and literarely saw my brother just opening the house entrance door (wich his there, one of the two). A minute later, and he wouldīve caught me. He said, he just came home to eat something.

Another time I wanted to do the fetish, and thought like "Shall I have breakfast first, or shall I do fetish first?" I decided for breakfast, which was my luck, because then I heared my dad working in his office. He shouldīve been at work, but that day for reasons he wanted to stay home.

Other than that thereīs always a chance one of my family members would random come home from work early.

I just got to phobic about getting caught either by the noise or by someone stepping into me (I can lock the door, but that just makes it kinda suspicious)

I also can do some "silent" sessions, like using beach balls, the gymnastic ball, or mylar balloons (Iīm totally amazed how strong they are. I can sit on them on ground with my 115Kgs, even ride them, and they wonīt pop even thou the material is stretched out "rock hard")... still I just donīt know.

Iīd love to enjoy my fetish. I love inflating balloons that much, that the neck starts to appear (just a bit) then tie them, and sit on them. Some carry me easy, some just pop... and that is what I really enjoy, but lately... or since months... I havenīt done anything about that.

I just donīt know what to do. Thatīs why I ask here. I have hundrets of balloons. I bought a "stack" of 500 misprinted advertising balloons. Some of them are really strong, some of them rather weak (All in the 10-12" area)... I still have >400 of these ... and many others in my stash.

What should I do?

Iīve thought about sit popping some under the bed blanket... but eim neither sure, if it would attentuate the popping noise good enough, nor I really like it. Itīs good for a few pops, but when doing it, I want to see the balloon, "feel" it, and not have it (kinda numb) under the bed blanket.
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Old 11-11-2020, 03:52 PM
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Hi
For me this fetish became really addictive , I couldn't reach the 7th heaven without using them ... they were in my mind... in the background along the days & nights ... I lost my partner because of that... a real shock
I was suddenly aware that it went too far and I suddenly lost the needs or the excitation involving "simple latex objects".
Years later I retrieve slowly the need and excitation to plays with balloons but it remains like spice for some moments and no more an invasive obsession.
It's just my experience
Feel free to contact me for further dial/info sharing.
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Old 17-11-2020, 03:00 PM
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Mine has died down since teenage days to the point where they do little for me alone, and not that much with another. It's mostly just watching others these days, and I just have balloons around for fun, decor.
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Old 22-11-2020, 02:55 PM
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Default Re: Is it possible to lose the fetish?
I have tried to in many ways. Even telling myself it’s weird and not normal.
I have not been using inflatables for some time now. Something like 10 years. Still think about them in a sexual way most weeks and still have inflatable toys tucked away. The urge goes for a while and then comes back. it goes for months some.

I have fantasising about inflatables for more than 40 years. I have never been able to fully explore the my fetish for one reason or another. Which is a shame but I still want to.

So do I think I will lose the fetish? Not now
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